The end of this chapter..

I did it! I resigned from the company that I have been working for for 11 years.
I will be starting my new job on the 1st of April.
Feelings?
Anticipation!
Excitement!
a Little bit of fear - I think the healthy kind..:-)
And . .I am very impatient! I want to finish up with this moving business!
I will be moving to a town in the Eastern Cape. I will miss the luxuries of the city and the friends that I have made in the 16 years that I have lived in Bloemfontein. I will be moving back to my hometown though...so the landing on that side will be extremely soft...my parents..my brother..my sister..my best friend...all stay there and they have all promised to make the landing as soft as possible.
My daughter will be going to the same school I went to as a child, we will be going to the same church..what more could I ask for?

If you ever wondered if the concepts as explained in "The Secret" are the truth, then I can now tell you that they are. Thoughts become things. I just believe that all this is brought about by a living, loving God - as described in the Bible...He truly wants the best for His children as described in John 10:10.

I want to thank the Lord for knowing exactly what my life would entail, what roads I would travel and people I would meet. For protecting me every single second of every single day and for making my heart so full of joy that it wants to burst! Looking at what my new job would entail, I realise that He as been preparing me for years and years..

To all the friends I leave behind.. I will not be further away than a call or an e-mail. I promise to stay in touch as best I can..I just wonder if my new job in the private sector will allow me much time!!

To all the ones that I have said goodbye to last week..

The guys at work...you really are the best! Thanks for the wonderful gift. I appreciate it more than you know. I had the pleasure of working with you for one short year and still you made me feel so special!

To AKD and LR...dinner at New York was fabulous. I will miss our ladies nights.

To rObC and the wonderful new lady in his life..E (Moondancer) - thank you for a wonderful braai and all the trouble you went through to make the evening so memorable..I believe that our paths will definitely cross again next to a Motocross track or Off-Road Race somewhere in South Africa!

To all the people who have looked at me with sceptical eyes at the news of my resignation..yes the future is uncertain but I will not let fear of the unknown or negative words spoken over my future hold me back. I know that the Lord has given me this new direction in my life and why would I fear your eyes or thoughts when I have the Almighty on my side. I praise Him for all that I am and will become. I now know joy!

To Florence Thom who one day said:

Every person should have at least three careers in their lifetime..

Thank you Florence. I doubt that you will remember my name or face, but I took your words to heart.

and then one final quote that struck me as SO real, in my life particularly...and as I look back I see that it was only my inner fears that kept me from greater heights.

I forgive myself for having believed for so long that... I was never good enough to have, get, be what I wanted.
Ceanne DeRohan

Speak to you soon, to start off the next chapter!

Apologize

Love this song!

One Republic Feat.Timbaland - Apologize



I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new - yeah yeah
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...

The words ring true when I think of M - whom I thought was my best friend, but twice interrupted time spent together, to run after the company of other people.
Like the words above says: you said sorry, but I thought you were an angel and now all I can say is..it's too late to apologize.
I'm just horribly horribly sad for this friendship that is now lost.

Elephants

As with so many other things - rObC made me aware that there were two sets of elephant ornaments in my home! I did not collect them as such, but they just happened across my path and without realising it, I had begun a theme!

Then on sunday I received a gift from rObC - a Glass Crystal Paperweight with a 3D Laser Elephant Design. 5 Elephants. Two adult elephants and 3 baby elephants. The Crystal LED light base displays them beautiful and I have caught myself staring at them for extended periods.

They are BEAUTIFUL! Thank you so much for the gift rObC and thank you for the thought behind the gift. I appreciate that you witness my life.

In the movie "Shall we dance" - there is a piece of dialogue that really got to me:

"All these promises that we make and we break. Why do people get married? Passion? No! Because we need a witness to our lives. There is a billion people on the planet. What does any one life really mean? But in a marriage you're promising to care about everything. The good things, the bad things, the mundane things. All of it, all of the time, everyday. You're saying that your life will not go unnoticed, because I will notice it. Your life will not go unwitnessed, because I will be your witness."

Food for thought.