Thoughts

I have always blogged at least once a month. September was the first month this year that I had absolutely nothing to say. I'll tell you why. I was caught up in the turmoil of experiencing one of the prettiest Spring seasons I have ever seen and the shock and horror of being retrenched. YES! The ONE thing that I thought would never happen to me - happened. The shock because it was only six months ago that I left a steady and well-paying job with wonderful perks for the adventure of working in the private sector again. I changed my WHOLE life around. Worst part was the enthusiasm that I did it with - I had a horrible first 6 months and now that I am finally settling down and starting to enjoy my surroundings and family - this. I still believe that the Lord has sent me here for a reason. I believe that like Esther, I am being positioned to help when the time is right. She didn't like the change at first. She adapted with grace, was prepared for years and finally could serve her people when she had to.
I am finishing my current job at the end of October so please pray with me that I will accept the position where the Lord places me with the same grace and enthusiasm that Esther showed. Please note that I am not saying WHEN the Lord places me, because I believe that His grace is never too late.
Then.
At the beginning of this year, I think around February, I saw a video of one of Def Leppards' songs called "Tonight". I made a note of the song's name and planned to blog on it, but never got around to it. Yesterday the memory of the song surfaced with such vigour that I YouTubed it, got the lyrics and again was amazed how perfectly the words expressed what I have been battling to verbalise the past few days. I think maybe through verbalising the thoughts I might chase the source away. I am experiencing spring in more than one sense is all that I am going to divulge at the moment.
This is a BEAUTIFUL song.

Def Leppard - Tonite (The DVD spells the song's title as Tonite, not Tonight)



DEF LEPPARD - TONITE

I don't wanna play the waiting game
And drift away leavin' an illusion
I don't wanna hide, It's foolish pride
To close my eyes a touch away from holdin' you

Don't try to look away when you're face to face
I see your eyes that animal emotion
You don't have to set your tender trap
It's in those eyes, it's gonna happen anyway

Movin' to the rhythm of your heartbeat, yeah
I'm wantin', willin', touchin' you, we'll be
Movin' to the rhythm of your heartbeat
Ooh babe, when you get that rhythm
Gonna move into your room

Tonight - Gimme love with no disguise
Tonight - I see the fire in your eyes
Tonight - So right, this night could be dynamite
Wait'n'see, if it pleases you it pleases me

There's nothing I can say, it's no mystery
It's in your eyes, those eyes are where I wanted them
So give me heart 'n' soul, I lose control
Can't stop my eyes from fallin' into fantasy

Movin' to the rhythm of your heartbeat, oh
I'm wantin', willin', touchin' you, we'll be
Movin' to the rhythm of your heartbeat
Ooh yeah, when you get that rhythm
Gonna move into your room

Tonight - Gimme love with no disguise
Tonight - I see the fire in your eyes
Tonight - So right, this night could be dynamite
Wait'n'see
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Tonight - Gimme love with no disguise
Tonight - I see the fire in your eyes
Tonight - I wanna win the greatest prize
Tonight - So right this night could be dynamite
Wait'n'see, if it pleases you it pleases me