Just to say...

Miss blogging..

Came across this quote the other day. Loved it. The Universe made sure it got my attention by motivating one of my friends to send it to me without knowing that it touched my heart...the Universe sometimes has funny ways of showing comfort!

"One doesn't discover new lands without consenting to lose sight of the shore for a very long time."

~ André Gide ~

The first month..

Visiting the in-laws for the weekend in Kei Mouth. Haven't visited in ...7 years! B was over the moon with the fact that we could visit together and I suspect that visiting together will happen more often in the future now that we stay only 180km away and not nearly 600kms! We've been down to the beach, but the town was very busy with the Bush Pig Rally that was hosted here.
The first month of our new life has been fine. We might have found a place to stay and if we decide to take the new cottage, I will be moving in next weekend. The cost still has me gasping! B has decided to stay in Kei Mouth with her grandparents until next weekend.
Work is fine - finally getting a good grip on what needs to be done daily. Still adapting to the long working hours, but they go by so fast that it doesn't really matter.
Read "Who moved my cheese" this weekend and could relate to all the principles explained in the book. Change happens and should be anticipated and lived through with a positive attitude. We have so much to be thankful for, that makes it a lot easier to be positive.
Blogged about the song "Bleeding Love" by Leona Lewis on the 4th of February, but somehow the first paragraph reverberated this week:
Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
and it was all in vain
Time starts to pass and before
you know it, you're frozen.
Yes. True. Frozen. Oh well.
Still miss my music. Hopefully will be able to indulge soon when I have my own place.
Surfing on the web these days is a true luxury. Access is not so much the problem as being able to spend time looking around and writing. Dreams are plenty..just can't get to getting them all together and writing them down. Soon. They revolve around a KTM 640, a "words" room and dancing. Like Martin Luther King Jnr. said on the 28th of August in 1963... "I have a dream!"

Autumn

Everywhere I look the leaves on trees are changing colour. Leaves are crunching under my feet and the fresh chill in the air makes for cosy sleeping at night. Autumn to me is a magical season. I think my experience of autumn this year is made more intense because I am personally experiencing an autumn period in my life. For the next couple of months I will have to adapt and learn so many things in my new work and living environment, to be able to get to an emotional summer where all will be comfortable again. I am enjoying every minute of this new world that I have entered. I have met wonderful people and everybody has been so kind. I would love though to have my own place to stay and have my own things around me so that I can merge the old with the new. I miss my friends so much. Already they feel a thousand kilometers away and although I still have regular contact with them, they seem very far from my new world.

I miss my computer and mostly my music. Work days are so busy and time seems to be a luxury that evades me. Last night I was just about to indulge in a pool of negative thoughts when my sister's best friend took me under her wing by inviting me over for a glass of wine. A bottle of wine later my sister joined us and the evening turned out a gem. We listened to 70's and 80's music and L's husband took out all their old cassettes! What a trip down memory lane! Modern Talking, Indecent Obesession, Wilson Phillips.
Discovered this song, that apparently was my sister and W's dancefloor opening song at their wedding...I fail to remember...but it fits perfectly my emotional mood.

The UK mission - Butterfly on a wheel



Silver and gold and it's growing cold
Autumn leaves lay as thick as thieves
Shivers down your spine chill you to the bone
'Cos the mandolin wind is the melody that turns
Your heart to stone

The heat of your breath carving shadows on the mist
Every angel has the wish that she's never been kissed

A broken dream haunting in your sleep
And hiding in your smile a secret you must keep
Love cuts you deep

Love breaks the wings of a butterfly on a wheel
Love breaks the wings of a butterfly on a wheel

There's no scarlet in you, lay your veil down for me
As sure as God made wine, you can't wrap your arms
Around a memory
Take warmth from me, cold Autumn winds cut sharp as
a
knife
And in the dark for me, you're the candle flame that
Flickers to life

Love breaks the wings of a butterlfy on a wheel
Love will break the wings of a butterfly on a wheel

Wise men say all is fair in love and war
There's no right or wrong in the design of love
And I could only watch as the wind crushed your wings
Broken and torn crushed like the flower under the snow
And like the flower in spring
Love will rise again to heal your wings

Love heals the wings of a butterfly on a wheel
Love will heal the wings of a butterfly on a wheel

The end of this chapter..

I did it! I resigned from the company that I have been working for for 11 years.
I will be starting my new job on the 1st of April.
Feelings?
Anticipation!
Excitement!
a Little bit of fear - I think the healthy kind..:-)
And . .I am very impatient! I want to finish up with this moving business!
I will be moving to a town in the Eastern Cape. I will miss the luxuries of the city and the friends that I have made in the 16 years that I have lived in Bloemfontein. I will be moving back to my hometown though...so the landing on that side will be extremely soft...my parents..my brother..my sister..my best friend...all stay there and they have all promised to make the landing as soft as possible.
My daughter will be going to the same school I went to as a child, we will be going to the same church..what more could I ask for?

If you ever wondered if the concepts as explained in "The Secret" are the truth, then I can now tell you that they are. Thoughts become things. I just believe that all this is brought about by a living, loving God - as described in the Bible...He truly wants the best for His children as described in John 10:10.

I want to thank the Lord for knowing exactly what my life would entail, what roads I would travel and people I would meet. For protecting me every single second of every single day and for making my heart so full of joy that it wants to burst! Looking at what my new job would entail, I realise that He as been preparing me for years and years..

To all the friends I leave behind.. I will not be further away than a call or an e-mail. I promise to stay in touch as best I can..I just wonder if my new job in the private sector will allow me much time!!

To all the ones that I have said goodbye to last week..

The guys at work...you really are the best! Thanks for the wonderful gift. I appreciate it more than you know. I had the pleasure of working with you for one short year and still you made me feel so special!

To AKD and LR...dinner at New York was fabulous. I will miss our ladies nights.

To rObC and the wonderful new lady in his life..E (Moondancer) - thank you for a wonderful braai and all the trouble you went through to make the evening so memorable..I believe that our paths will definitely cross again next to a Motocross track or Off-Road Race somewhere in South Africa!

To all the people who have looked at me with sceptical eyes at the news of my resignation..yes the future is uncertain but I will not let fear of the unknown or negative words spoken over my future hold me back. I know that the Lord has given me this new direction in my life and why would I fear your eyes or thoughts when I have the Almighty on my side. I praise Him for all that I am and will become. I now know joy!

To Florence Thom who one day said:

Every person should have at least three careers in their lifetime..

Thank you Florence. I doubt that you will remember my name or face, but I took your words to heart.

and then one final quote that struck me as SO real, in my life particularly...and as I look back I see that it was only my inner fears that kept me from greater heights.

I forgive myself for having believed for so long that... I was never good enough to have, get, be what I wanted.
Ceanne DeRohan

Speak to you soon, to start off the next chapter!

The Miracle of Love

Know how you can listen to a song everyday and then one day, for reasons unknown, the melody just echoes in your soul..and it turns your insides upside down!
My soul found this song today..

The Miracle of Love – Eurythmics



How many sorrows
Do you try to hide
In a world of illusions
That's covering your mind?
I'll show you something good
Oh I'll show you something good.
When you open your mind
You'll discover the sign
That there's something
You're longing to find...

The miracle of love
Will take away your pain
When the miracle of love
Comes your way again.

Cruel is the night
That covers up your fears.
Tender is the one
Who wipes away your tears.
There must be a bitter breeze
To make you sting so viciously-
They say the greatest cowards
Can hurt the most ferociously.
But I'll show you something good
Oh I'll show you something good.
If you open your heart
You can make a new start
When your crumbling world falls apart.

Life is too short.

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets.

So, love the people who treat you right,

forget about the ones who don't,

and believe that everything happens for a reason.

Know a good thing when you see it,

and don't let it slip away.

If you get a chance, take it.

If it changes your life, let it.

Nobody said it would be easy,

they just said it would be worth it!

Thank you Liezel for that one..