The first month..

Visiting the in-laws for the weekend in Kei Mouth. Haven't visited in ...7 years! B was over the moon with the fact that we could visit together and I suspect that visiting together will happen more often in the future now that we stay only 180km away and not nearly 600kms! We've been down to the beach, but the town was very busy with the Bush Pig Rally that was hosted here.
The first month of our new life has been fine. We might have found a place to stay and if we decide to take the new cottage, I will be moving in next weekend. The cost still has me gasping! B has decided to stay in Kei Mouth with her grandparents until next weekend.
Work is fine - finally getting a good grip on what needs to be done daily. Still adapting to the long working hours, but they go by so fast that it doesn't really matter.
Read "Who moved my cheese" this weekend and could relate to all the principles explained in the book. Change happens and should be anticipated and lived through with a positive attitude. We have so much to be thankful for, that makes it a lot easier to be positive.
Blogged about the song "Bleeding Love" by Leona Lewis on the 4th of February, but somehow the first paragraph reverberated this week:
Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
and it was all in vain
Time starts to pass and before
you know it, you're frozen.
Yes. True. Frozen. Oh well.
Still miss my music. Hopefully will be able to indulge soon when I have my own place.
Surfing on the web these days is a true luxury. Access is not so much the problem as being able to spend time looking around and writing. Dreams are plenty..just can't get to getting them all together and writing them down. Soon. They revolve around a KTM 640, a "words" room and dancing. Like Martin Luther King Jnr. said on the 28th of August in 1963... "I have a dream!"

Autumn

Everywhere I look the leaves on trees are changing colour. Leaves are crunching under my feet and the fresh chill in the air makes for cosy sleeping at night. Autumn to me is a magical season. I think my experience of autumn this year is made more intense because I am personally experiencing an autumn period in my life. For the next couple of months I will have to adapt and learn so many things in my new work and living environment, to be able to get to an emotional summer where all will be comfortable again. I am enjoying every minute of this new world that I have entered. I have met wonderful people and everybody has been so kind. I would love though to have my own place to stay and have my own things around me so that I can merge the old with the new. I miss my friends so much. Already they feel a thousand kilometers away and although I still have regular contact with them, they seem very far from my new world.

I miss my computer and mostly my music. Work days are so busy and time seems to be a luxury that evades me. Last night I was just about to indulge in a pool of negative thoughts when my sister's best friend took me under her wing by inviting me over for a glass of wine. A bottle of wine later my sister joined us and the evening turned out a gem. We listened to 70's and 80's music and L's husband took out all their old cassettes! What a trip down memory lane! Modern Talking, Indecent Obesession, Wilson Phillips.
Discovered this song, that apparently was my sister and W's dancefloor opening song at their wedding...I fail to remember...but it fits perfectly my emotional mood.

The UK mission - Butterfly on a wheel



Silver and gold and it's growing cold
Autumn leaves lay as thick as thieves
Shivers down your spine chill you to the bone
'Cos the mandolin wind is the melody that turns
Your heart to stone

The heat of your breath carving shadows on the mist
Every angel has the wish that she's never been kissed

A broken dream haunting in your sleep
And hiding in your smile a secret you must keep
Love cuts you deep

Love breaks the wings of a butterfly on a wheel
Love breaks the wings of a butterfly on a wheel

There's no scarlet in you, lay your veil down for me
As sure as God made wine, you can't wrap your arms
Around a memory
Take warmth from me, cold Autumn winds cut sharp as
a
knife
And in the dark for me, you're the candle flame that
Flickers to life

Love breaks the wings of a butterlfy on a wheel
Love will break the wings of a butterfly on a wheel

Wise men say all is fair in love and war
There's no right or wrong in the design of love
And I could only watch as the wind crushed your wings
Broken and torn crushed like the flower under the snow
And like the flower in spring
Love will rise again to heal your wings

Love heals the wings of a butterfly on a wheel
Love will heal the wings of a butterfly on a wheel