50km to nowhere..

This song has had so much meaning to me the past few months.
Funny how you can remember exactly were you were when you first heard it, or that moment when the song had special meaning.
I remember driving 50km to nowhere with the song playing in the background.




Say It Right - Nelly Furtado

In the day
In the night
Say it right
Say it all
You either got it
Or you don't
You either stand or you fall
When your will is broken
When it slips from your hand
When there's no time for joking
There's a hole in the plan

Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me
No you don't mean nothing at all to me
But you got what it takes to set me free
Oh you could mean everything to me

I can't say that I'm not lost and at fault
I can't say that I don't love the light and the dark
I can't say that I don't know that I am alive
And all of what I feel I could show
You tonight you tonight

Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me
No you don't mean nothing at all to me
But you got what it takes to set me free
Oh you could mean everything to me

From my hands I could give you
Something that I made
From my mouth I could sing you another brick that I laid
From my body I could show you a place God knows
You should know the space is holy
Do you really want to go?

Private Emotion

When your soul has a melody, it's sometimes hard to find the perfect words to express all the feelings. This morning Ricky Martin gave the words to the melody in my soul.

Private Emotion - Ricky Martin

Every endless night has a dawning day
Every darkest sky has a shining ray
And it shines on you baby can't you see
You're the only one who can shine for me

[CHORUS:]

It's a private emotion that fills you tonight
And a silence falls between us
As the shadows steal the light
And wherever you may find it
Wherever it may lead
Let your private emotion come to me
Come to me

When your soul is tired and your heart is weak
Do you think of love as one way street
Well it runs both ways, open up your eyes
Can't you see me here, how can you deny

[CHORUS]

Every endless night has a dawning day
Every darkest sky has a shining ray
It takes a lot to laugh as your tears go by
But you can find me here till your tears run dry

[CHORUS]

Cheetahs!!!

WE WON!!!!!

I had the pleasure of attending the CurrieCup Final between the Xerox Lions and the Vodacom Free State Cheetahs in Bloemfontein on saturday! The atmosphere was breathtaking and seeing everybody dressed in the Cheetah's signature Orange was quite something.

Attending the game was the World Cup Champion Springboks and they were so close to us, we could not only see them, but also the Web-Ellis Trophy they were holding prior to the victory walk around the stadium at half time. The game itself was nailbiting and the Lions were in the lead for most of the game but the Cheetahs came back with a phenomenal effort to win the game in the last two minutes! The crowd went wild!

This morning I received photos, that were taken from Johan Naudé's Cessna while flying over the stadium, minutes before the game started and they had to clear air space for the boeing from 1time for their fly-by.

He was the pilot and his girlfriend took the photos.

Construction for 2010's Soccer World Cup is clearly visible behind the main pavilion and of course the ORANGE - I suppose that's why the stadium is called the "house of orange"

CONGRATULATIONS CHEETAHS!!!

alis volat propris

alis volat propris

"she flies with her own wings"

Never..

Never offend people with style when you can offend them with substance..

~ Sam Brown ~

Thanks for that one Elizabeth - I REALLY enjoyed it!

Vulnerable

My track record of relationships is not the most commendable, and the fact that I am still single after my divorce six years ago, speaks for itself.

I have had the pleasure of making the acquaintance of a man with whom I believe I have a very deep, loving, soul relationship. We have not in the course of the nearly two years that we’ve known each other spent more than 8 solid hours together, as in face-to-face, (of which the last seven hours was spent over 3 days – and mostly in the company of others), but through written communication we’ve gotten to know each other at a very deep level. Although we both know that this relationship will never end in marriage, I believe that we both truly love each other.

Through all our communication, we’ve established a trust relationship and then last night, the unimaginable happened. We had our first fight – written of course. What made this fight remarkable is that although we were both FURIOUS, and harsh statements were made – the level of trust was so great, that we could manage to expose our inner most feelings and be vulnerable and through a bit of humor and a lot of love, we managed to resolve the problem.

Because I have never experienced this in any other relationship before it got me thinking about the elements of our relationship. Trust, and then something that blowed my mind. Vulnerability. For the first time I was able to expose my innermost being and risk getting hurt. I knew that this man was capable of hurting me in a way that I have never experienced before – and was TERRIFIED at the thought, but somehow I think my emotions have matured to such a level that I was able to brace myself and know that whatever happens – I would get through it.

The definition of the word ‘vulnerable’ says so much:

According to the Merriam-Webster Online Dictionary - http://m-w.com/ - it has the following meanings.

1 : capable of being physically or emotionally wounded
2 : open to attack or damage

Wounded!!! Damaged!!! Isn’t that the reason why so many marriages these days end up in disaster, because we’re not willing to allow ourselves to be wounded or damaged? But, then again, a marriage is supposed to be a trusting relationship in which we should cultivate an environment in which a person can trust his/her partner. Do we still do that??

And then a final question: Why do people seldom end up in marriage with the people with who they have soul connections with? Personally I’m scared to death of the word “soulmate” – because in both my serious relationships I believed that I had a “soulmate” in my partner and they both proved me wrong. I do believe however that through the emotional stages of your life, you do meet people with whom you share some connections between souls. Kat and I however share so many connections that it positively amazes me.

It took us exactly, to the day, 20 months from our first meeting to our second meeting and although we have no idea if we will ever meet each other again, I do know that he fills my soul and causes me great joy. At this stage of my life – that is all that I need!

I will always love you unconditionally Kat.

Again my soul found expression in a song: Nickelback’s Far Away – because Kat truly is far away! The italic text is the parts that I want to share and the bold font the really important parts..

Nickelback - Far Away

This time, This place

Misused, Mistakes

Too long, Too late

Who was I to make you wait

Just one chance

Just one breath

Just in case there's just one left

'Cause you know,you know, you know

[CHORUS]

That I love you

I have loved you all along

And I miss you

Been far away for far too long

I keep dreaming you'll be with me

and you'll never go

Stop breathing if

I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask

Last chance for one last dance

'Cause with you, I'd withstand

All of hell to hold your hand

I'd give it all

I'd give for us

Give anything but I won't give up

'Cause you know,you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away

Been far away for far too long

So far away

Been far away for far too long

But you know, you know, you know –

(and then the first words of the chorus fall in perfectly..that I love you)

I wanted

I wanted you to stay

'Cause I needed

I need to hear you say

That I love you

I have loved you all along

And I forgive you

For being away for far too long

So keep breathing

'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore

Believe it

Hold on to me and, never let me go

Keep breathing

'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore

Believe it

Hold on to me and, never let me go

Keep breathing

Hold on to me and, never let me go

Keep breathing

Hold on to me and, never let me go

Force of Nature..

You cannot hold back a good laugh any more than you can the tide. Both are forces of nature.

~ William Rotsler ~

I believe!

rObC introduced me to a wonderful webpage called "Astronomy Picture of the day"

http://antwrp.gsfc.nasa.gov/apod/

and although I don't always have the time to go have a look - this picture I found breathtaking.

It is called: Tutulemma: Solar Eclipse Analemma

The authors of the page always gives an explanation of the picture..

Explanation: If you went outside at exactly the same time every day and took a picture that included the Sun, how would the Sun appear to move? With great planning and effort, such a series of images can be taken. The figure-8 path the Sun follows over the course of a year is called an analemma. With even greater planning and effort, the series can include a total eclipse of the Sun as one of the images. Pictured is such a total solar eclipse analemma or Tutulemma - a term coined by the photographers based on the Turkish word for eclipse. The composite image sequence was recorded from Turkey starting in 2005. The base image for the sequence is from the total phase of a solar eclipse as viewed from Side, Turkey on 2006 March 29. Venus was also visible during totality, toward the lower right.

Note the infinity symbol that the path of the sun creates...and then there are still people that believe that God does not exist and do not realize his infinite wisdom..